So today is not too bad a day. I got a lot done at work and even some cleaning of my office. If I can keep this up I may be caught up by the end of next week.

Today I found out when the Chili Challenge is - the 28th and when the Bike Auction is (the 26th). Emilee will be here for both. I wonder if she will attend. I'll send her the info and see what she thinks.

Danny told me he doesn't have much for classes tomorrow so he wants to go snow boarding. I think he probably does need a break - I just need him to be careful driving my truck.

DMae will be coming down on Saturday - since she will be here later in the day I can save the rest of my house cleaning until then. Which means I can just veg out at night - except for my bills which I need to do ASAP.

I need to free think here a little bit. I need to just let my mind go where it will. I really would like to go back to NZ sometime soon. I really would like to have all my finances in order - this is something I can do if I just quit being so lazy. I need to set myself some goals and meet them.

At one time in my life I was able to set goals and keep them. It has been years ago. I think Monk robbed me of that ability. I think his overbearing of our relationship robbed me of myself and I need to continue to get myself back. I have no one to blame but myself now, though. I need to focus and stay focused.

I do think I suffer from depression in the winter, though. That is when I tend to fall behind and can't seem to get myself back on track. I will look into what I can do next winter - whether it is vitamin D, or a light box, or simply a better exercise routine. Or all three. I am going to work through this.

So I will set some goals by Sunday, along with action plans and deadlines. And I will keep them. Then I will feel better about myself and able to move on.

This is all for now.

later